Archive for August, 2011

Look into my eyes….

Look into my eyes…..


Look into my eyes when you serve me in line

Don’t you see the pain that I been through

I didn’t want it to be this way I never imagined that it would come to this.


Look into my eyes why avoid me stare

I am not a bad mother just because I can’t feed my children.

 I use to be like the one that serves me

I use to have a nice house, nice cloths and was able to feed my children.


Look into my eyes and see what losing everything has done to me

I didn’t ask for my husband to get sick

I didn’t ask to have no emergency plan for the just in case


Look into my eyes and don’t judge me

I don’t need your pity

I need your understanding


Look into my eyes and see what strength I have

I stand in this line so my children can eat

I swallow my pride and take help that has been offered to me


Look into my eyes and see that I am a person too

See who I am and not what you think I don’t do

See that I love my children just like you


But you can’t look into my eyes

Because you are afraid this might happen to you.


By: Dawn


I wrote this poem for all the people who I serve at the meal site that I work at. There is a story behind every person in that line. Are you willing to listen?


God Bless,




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          I use the term “super Christian” a lot and I am not using it as words of endearment.  I actually use it in a negative light.  For instance “we all can’t be super Christian like so and so…” or “I know I will never be a super Christian.”  What do I mean by “super Christian?”  I mean that these are the people who always have it together. They can quote verses from the bible, they never miss a service, they are  involved in everything in church, and they never seem to question their faith….ever.  

So here are my top five reasons why super Christians can’t exist.  

  1. There was only one perfect person in this world. That is Jesus.
  2. We are born with sinful nature. No matter what we do we can’t get rid of the sinful nature even if you are saved. This is a daily struggle for all Christians.
  3. Having doubts is part of human nature. Whether it’s doubts about  passing a test or get that new job. Everybody has doubts about something.  
  4. Jesus did not Judge others, he loved others. The same can’t be said about Christians.
  5. Thanks To Adam and Eve, we lost our spot with God that made us perfect, free from sin and we can’t be free from sin until we get to heaven.

     Now, I think that we should all strive everyday to try to be as perfect as Jesus was. But let’s face some facts here; we will fall short everyday to the glory of God.  Here is the one thing we should remember: Jesus died on the cross for all of our sins. Point. Blank. Period.  In John 14:6 Jesus said, “I am the Way and the Truth and the Life. No one comes to the Father except through me.”

 Stop trying to be the “super Christian” that everybody thinks you should be and start being the Christian that God wants you to be. Only God knows your true heart and nobody else. The nice thing is that God gave us Jesus but also a support system called church. I believe that you can have a real faith in God and not have a church. BUT I also think that church gives you a support system that helps you to reach your full potential in Christ.

 God bless,


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I have been really struggling this week on a topic to write about for this blog. Normally I just have an idea hit me and then I write about it. I have thought about many topics this week that I could write about but just couldn’t get the piece the way that I wanted it. So, here I am typing and praying that something will come to me. I don’t know about you but this week has seemed more stressful than others. I had some family conflicts and such but nothing to out of the ordinary. I feel stuck. I feel stuck in place, I am not moving forward or backwards. I know that others have felt this way but this week has been worse than usual with this feeling. I know that I feel stuck with life things but I also feel spiritually stuck. I am not moving anywhere spiritually.


Now, I know that if I want to find my path I should look in the bible and pray. I am telling all of you that I have done this but still no luck. There are times that I just wish God would say “ Hey! “ and I would look up and point to myself. Then God would say “ yea you. Why do you have the stupid look on your face. Yes I can really talk from the heavens and you better listen. Here is what I want you to do.” and then He would tell me where He wants me. I figured he talked to Moses through a burning bush, he could do that for me.


I know that I don’t like being stuck in place and I am not sure how to get out of it. I think that part of the reason I feel like this is because I am unsure of what God has planned for me, so instead of moving forward or backward I have planted my feet down so I don’t disappoint God or anyone around me when I mess up the plan that God has laid out for me.


God has given us all spiritual gifts that he wants us to use. I am still unsure what my spiritual gift is ( yea I know I am 30 years old I should know) but I don’t. So if I am unsure what my gifts are and I am too scared to move forward than of course I am going to feel stuck in place.


I normally try to write to inspire or to make you think in a different light. I am sharing this because I think that you can all relate. I haven’t talked to anyone about it that could counsel me and maybe I should but I have just trying to figure this out on my own. So, I hope you all can relate and maybe think about how you might be stuck in place. I can change this I just have to be willing to do it. I hope the same for all of you. I am leaving you with some verses that I hope inspire you and me.


“The Lord says, ‘I will guide you along the best pathway for your life. I will advise you and watch over you’.” Psalm 32:8


Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths.” Proverbs 3:5-6


And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.” Romans 8:28


God has given each of you a gift from his great variety of spiritual gifts. Use them well to serve one another… Do it with all the strength and energy God supplies. Then everything you do will bring glory to God through Jesus Christ.” 1 Peter 4:10, 11




God Bless,




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Why is it so hard to be thankful?

Why is it so hard to be thankful?  I find it hard to be thankful when I can’t pay by bills, when my kids are being naughty, when it seems that everybody always has more than me.  It  is hard in a society that the more you have the better of a person you are.   Is there things to be thankful for? Well of course there is!!!!

So here is a my list  of things that I am thankful for.

  •  I am thankful that I have Jesus as my savior.
  •  I am thankful to have a husband that loves me.
  •  I am thankful that I am a mother.
  •   I am thankful for a loving mother, father, sister, cousin, and grandparents.
  •   I am thankful for loving friends.
  •   I am thankful that I have a house.
  •  I am thankful that I have always have food in my house.
  • I am thankful for having clean, running water at my disposal at anytime.
  • I am thankful to wake up every morning.
  • I am thankful to have a church family.   

Actually writing this list it could be a lot longer but I think you get the jest. There are so many things in life to be positive about or thankful for, it’s hard to be negative. I have been really negative lately and today I had to stop myself and reevaluate what is important in life.  The things I have are not as important as the people who I have. I am thankful for all the good and bad in my life because the bad stuff is what makes me grow as a person and as a follower of Christ. 


God bless,


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The newest song by Beyonce’ is the called “The best thing I never had.” The song talks about a relationship that just end up not working out and she talks about how that ends up being the best thing she never had.  This song got me thinking about all the relationships that I have had that just didn’t work out. I was engaged  before I met my husband to my high school sweet heart.  I thought that we would be together  forever, well obviously that didn’t work out. I am not sure if he actually cheated on me but he did have an inappropriate relationship with another female (her family and mine were friends) but it ended our relationship and he married her. At the time I thought it was the end of the world but it turned out that he was the best thing I never had. I met my husband and the rest is history.

There are times in all of our lives that we think we find the one but God has other plans for us. I knew that the first time I met my husband I was going to marry him.  He didn’t know that. I had to be patient for him to realize what I already knew.  I waited patiently for a while, gave up a couple of times and broke up with him. The funny thing is that we always managed to get back together.  He has been the best thing I have ever had.

I like this song because it talks about a lot of truths about relationships that there are some relationships that are just unhealthy for both people. God will guide us to the person that He wants us to end up with.  So, just remember if you are in a relationship that seems  more challenging than it should maybe it’s time to reevaluate the relationship and see if this person is the best thing you never had. God has a person for everybody you may just have to be patient and wait for them. As my pastor always says “Be the person that you are looking for.”  That is great advice if you are single.

I will leave you with this in Genesis 29:15-20 “Laban said to him, “Just because you are a relative of mine, should you work for me for nothing? Tell me what your wages should be.” 16 Now Laban had two daughters; the name of the older was Leah, and the name of the younger was Rachel. 17 Leah had weak eyes, but Rachel had a lovely figure and was beautiful. 18 Jacob was in love with Rachel and said, “I’ll work for you seven years in return for your younger daughter Rachel.” 19 Laban said, “It’s better that I give her to you than to some other man. Stay here with me.” 20 So Jacob served seven years to get Rachel, but they seemed like only a few days to him because of his love for her.”


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