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We all face trials in our lives.  It seems that sometimes others don’t because they don’t ever mention that they are. But we all do. These last couple of weeks my husband and I have faced some serious trials. I try not to think of the trials now as punishment from God. But I have to admit at times it feels that way. I know that I have really screwed some things up in my life.  I know that in my heart that all of humanity has. But now it seems that God is kind of picking on me.  I know that God does not “pick on people” but now it sure feels that way.


There are times that some people face more trials than others. My question is that because some people make more wrong decisions than others? Or is it that some people don’t get the message the first time that God tries to send it? I think that sometimes I must be denser than others to not get the message loud and clear the first time.  Than here is the tricky part….I start to question God. Like “Why me?”Or “What did I do to piss you off some bad?”  I know I shouldn’t but the thoughts start to trickle in my head for some reason. I am sure that is what Satan wants me to do that. He uses these times that I struggle to steer me away from God.  Satan wants to use my fears and doubts against me to ultimately use it against God. Isn’t that what Satan’s goal is in the end, to steer us away from God.  I just know that I am sure for whatever reason (and now it is hard to see the “why”) that God is using this to make me stronger.

If God is using the same thing over and over, then it’s time to start getting the message that he is trying to send. I know that now I let money control the way that I think. But not in the sense that I want more and more. At times my husband and I have not been able to make ends meet. A lot of that is from poor planning and some of it is from circumstances. For my oldest son we have paid out some money for therapies which by the way are not cheap. So I get so worried about not paying bills  and  that is what I focus on. I should focus on the fact that God has always helped us make it through and trust in that.

So I am going to urge all of you (and hopefully me in the end) that God uses these times to make is stronger in Him. That in these times it shows us that we can’t no matter what we think we can do this thing called life without him.  I feel like God wants my attention and I need to really look and see what He wants me to see. I am leaving you with James 1:12

“Blessed is the man who remains steadfast under trial, for when he has stood the test he will receive the crown of life, which God has promised to those who love him.”

Philippians 4:6-7

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”

God Bless,



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