Archive for February, 2012


Since yesterday was Valentine’s Day and all, I decided to wait till the day after to write about why I love my husband. There are thousands of reasons why but I edited it down to just ten reasons.


  1. He makes me laugh every day.
  2. He gave me two beautiful boys.
  3. He is sexiest man I know.
  4. He likes to organize and does so well. (I hate to do this so I appreciate the fact that he likes to do it and is good at it.)
  5. He puts up with me on a daily basis.
  6.  When I get too stressed out he calms me down.
  7.   He is easy to talk to.
  8.   He listens to me (well most of the time)
  9.   He has always stayed faithful to me.
  10.   Because I know that he loves me more than anything!



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control freak!

Lately it seems that people have called me a control freak. I have never thought of myself in that way….ever. I like order I have to say. But I don’t have to have things my way, I just want things done. I am willing to get things done if nobody else wants to. I try to be the best me I can be in whatever I do.

But it surprises me when people say that I am a control freak! I must have somewhat of control of my life for the simple fact that I have two children one with autism. I have things that have to be remembered and things that just have to get done. So, in that aspect of my life I do need to control how things are done, to get them done.


So, it seems that in light of how I must present myself to other people I seem to be a control freak. I would never have seen that in myself. That got me thinking about how what I think I am and what I am are two totally different people. I know that to some degree we are all like that. There are qualities that we don’t care for in ourselves.

I know that for me I don’t like that I can be quick to anger and that I get hurt feelings very easily. These are two qualities that I have that if people pointed them out I would whole heartily agree with. Control freak is just not one quality in me that I think that I have. But I have had it said enough times in the last couple of weeks that now it has me thinking.

It also got me thinking. If I am a control freak then how in the world do I let God take control of my life since obviously I think I can do a better job. I think that I don’t to one degree because I am scared that things will get too out of control in my life. There is nothing wrong with a little order but not maybe to the degree that I do it. I also feel anxiety when things don’t get done or things are left for the last-minute. I like to plan a head so that I am ready. So what do I do about this? Where do I go to control freak anonymous? Maybe it’s about giving up my controlling tendencies to let God take control of my life. Maybe I should trust the person that made me to have my back when I feel out of control instead of trying to take control on my own.  

I am living you with this. “He is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn of all creation. For by him all things were created, in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or dominions or rulers or authorities—all things were created through him and for him. And he is before all things, and in him all things hold together.”

Colossians 1:15-17

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